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到手But let that be how it will, these were our apprehensions; and bothmy partner and I scarce slept a night without dreaming of haltersand yard-arms; of fighting, and being taken; of killing, and beingkilled: and one night I was in such a fury in my dream, fancyingthe Dutchmen had boarded us, and I was knocking one of their seamendown, that I struck my doubled fist against the side of the cabin Ilay in with such a force as wounded my hand grievously, broke myknuckles, and cut and bruised the flesh, so that it awaked me outof my sleep. Another apprehension I had was, the cruel usage wemight meet with from them if we fell into their hands; then thestory of Amboyna came into my head, and how the Dutch might perhapstorture us, as they did our countrymen there, and make some of ourmen, by extremity of torture, confess to crimes they never wereguilty of, or own themselves and all of us to be pirates, and sothey would put us to death with a formal appearance of justice; andthat they might be tempted to do this for the gain of our ship andcargo, worth altogether four or five thousand pounds. We did notconsider that the captains of ships have no authority to act thus;and if we had surrendered prisoners to them, they could not answerthe destroying us, or torturing us, but would be accountable for itwhen they came to their country. However, if they were to act thuswith us, what advantage would it be to us that they should becalled to an account for it? - or if we were first to be murdered,what satisfaction would it be to us to have them punished when theycame home?双色双色球app下载安装到手机下载I cannot refrain taking notice here what reflections I now had uponthe vast variety of my particular circumstances; how hard I thoughtit that I, who had spent forty years in a life of continualdifficulties, and was at last come, as it were, to the port orhaven which all men drive at, viz. to have rest and plenty, shouldbe a volunteer in new sorrows by my own unhappy choice, and that I,who had escaped so many dangers in my youth, should now come to behanged in my old age, and in so remote a place, for a crime which Iwas not in the least inclined to, much less guilty of. After thesethoughts something of religion would come in; and I would beconsidering that this seemed to me to be a disposition of immediateProvidence, and I ought to look upon it and submit to it as such.For, although I was innocent as to men, I was far from beinginnocent as to my Maker; and I ought to look in and examine whatother crimes in my life were most obvious to me, and for whichProvidence might justly inflict this punishment as a retribution;and thus I ought to submit to this, just as I would to a shipwreck,if it had pleased God to have brought such a disaster upon me.安装到手In its turn natural courage would sometimes take its place, andthen I would be talking myself up to vigorous resolutions; that Iwould not be taken to be barbarously used by a parcel of mercilesswretches in cold blood; that it were much better to have falleninto the hands of the savages, though I were sure they would feastupon me when they had taken me, than those who would perhaps gluttheir rage upon me by inhuman tortures and barbarities; that in thecase of the savages, I always resolved to die fighting to the lastgasp, and why should I not do so now? Whenever these thoughtsprevailed, I was sure to put myself into a kind of fever with theagitation of a supposed fight; my blood would boil, and my eyessparkle, as if I was engaged, and I always resolved to take noquarter at their hands; but even at last, if I could resist nolonger, I would blow up the ship and all that was in her, and leavethem but little booty to boast of.
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